Wednesday, January 12, 2011

I Choose Christ

        

As winter break is coming to an end and I head back to school in two days I am filled with different emotions which are going in every direction. Yes, I am excited and ready to go back to school, but at the same time I am sad to leave home. I'm ready to learn new things this semester, go back to my responsibilities in Mobile, see friends whom I have missed, and be on my own...just me and God. BUT, as they say, "Home is where the heart is." So true!

Having not spent much time home since high school, it's nice to be home and relax. Yet, as I am home staying where things of my past have taken place...same house, same town, and even same people...I realize I still am weak and forever will be without the help of my Lord. On my own I am destined to fail, to fall back into the same life style that God has plucked and rescued me from. It's easier to live and be OF this world. Boy, oh, boy, it's easy to go back. It's easier to go without picking up my Bible and journal and hear from God, then it is fighting the enemy and running into the arms of Christ. I find that in going a day or two or even three without spending time with God, my old ways come back and I am walking in my flesh, and pretty miserable at that! The enemy thrives on anything he can to bring me down and out of fellowship with Christ. I'm sorry, but no more. I am fighting. As 1 John 4:4 says,"Greater is He that is in me, then he that is in the world."  All of God's power is available to me to fight. I choose to fight, I choose to live in communion with God. Here are some of the things that I pray never to forget, but to be reminders for me to keep pressing into my Father:
  • The saving power of God in my life as a reminder to keep pushing toward Christ.
  • The days when death was before my very eyes, and in those last days Christ became my Strong High Tower. 
  • Those first days at Mercy when God became real to me the very first time...the start of  an intimate, hand in hand walk with the Savior of the world.
  • When I had nothing, but God to lean on and never did He turn His back on me.
  • Things that happened in my life were not for granted, but rather would be a testimony of hope. God has some BIG plans in store.
  • He has a purpose for me in this world--Destiny!
  • Mercy days when it was just God and me...lessons learned, afternoons spent broken before the Lord and how He met me and shared His heart with me,  and even the beginning of the road of allowing God to heal my heart, as even now He is healing wounds. 
These are just a few reminders that help me come back to the cross and remember that my life is not my own, it's Gods'. I much rather walk with God then without Him. Yes, I have fallen, but God reaches down and picks me up and strengthens me in Him. So, here I go...continuing my walk hand in hand with my Beloved.